Work mode

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Today has been an exhausting day at work. With five client consultations where two of them were new patients, my head was so overloaded at the end of the day that I actually had an headache, something I normally don`t get. In between the sessions, people came into my office with urgent matters. Another patient had started drinking again and we tried to reach him by telephone in case he needed to be an inpatient. Then a social worked contacted me after a conversation she had with a patient we have, unsure about what to do now. I did not come with any useful suggestions, as I am not certain what the next steps should be. In addition I also had to get some things for the city marathon on Saturday, so in the end I had to work longer than I should have.

Thankfully, when I came home, I had a 15 minute run. I am proud to say 15 minutes is quite an accomplishment, since I normally give up whenever I find an excuse. But when I keep on running, it gets better.

Now I feel good. The head-ache is completely gone, but I still think about my day at work. Since I started working with psychosis I have felt like I`m walking on thin ice. I have almost no experience, and yet dont know what questions I should ask or how I can move forward in a conversations. Some of the conversations are even a bit confusing, since they often have thoughts they have problems with explaining, or speak in an unorganized way. The contrast to my other patients is huge, so it is getting some time to get used to.

But, it has also been an interesting experience, and I am learning so much. About their deep fear, about how their minds try to organize the chaos inside. Out comes symbolic hallucinations, and sometimes delusions that might be a last resort for them to find meaning in the voices, or the feeling they have of somebody planting thoughts in their had. I have immense respect for their fight to get a better life, and my collages are equally amazing. So empathic, understanding and clever. That makes it easier, because I can talk with them about my uncertainties when I feel I have no idea about what I`m doing.

Time to get to bed, but I just needed to let out some steam.

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Making cards when I need to relax
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8 thoughts on “Work mode

    awax1217 said:
    April 27, 2018 at 10:28

    I do not know how you do it . I find when I listen to someone telling me their life story I interrupt them and ask for the five minute version. Most people are boring with constantly complaining about their plight without trying to climb out of their pit of agony.

    Fran (@franbel_) said:
    April 28, 2018 at 05:51

    It’s amazing how you cope with all this! More power to you!

    Angela Fernando said:
    April 28, 2018 at 12:26

    At least it is nice to see those one who fight against their fear to get a better life! I know people that stay always in their bad situation without moving forward and it sad that you can’t do anything to help them out.

    Clare Low said:
    April 28, 2018 at 14:37

    It sounds like your job is super stressful but I imagine your friendly ear is a comfort to so many people. It is nice that you have found some ways to relax when you get home your homemade card is just lovely.

    Bhushavali (@Bhushavali) said:
    April 30, 2018 at 07:04

    Good to know your 15min run rejuvenated you. That’s a beautiful card.

    stoner on a rollercoaster said:
    May 11, 2018 at 12:43

    I invite you to read a post of mine where I am gathering warriors facing mental health challenges 1st hand to educate people, to raise awareness and acceptance.

    I need help from you in breaking stigma.

    Here is the link to post.. https://stoneronarollercoaster.wordpress.com/2018/04/27/mental-health-awareness/

    Your participation can make a huge difference in someone’s life.

    Thank you

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