Today I have started to organize things that have been collecting for over a year. When I moved into a new apartment one year ago, I had to prioritize which things to move and what I simply should store away. It took me ages to move it all, as I only had a small car and had to drive back and forth a lot of times. This meant that I didn’t exactly put my things neatly into boxes, and the task of starting to sort through it all has been daunting. But today, my head is clear and I want to make the most of that. Sometimes I need to organize things around me to unclutter my mind too. To be honest, this need doesn’t manifest itself very often, so I have to make the most of it when it happens. My mother once told me that since I am so comfortable with mess around me, I need to untangle others lives. That I need to make sense of the psychological mess people find themselves in. I have thought about that, and even if I don’t think it’s that easy, there might be some truth to it. Recently it’s been quite calm at work, so I haven’t really had many challenges there. Maybe that’s why I need to fix things around me? No matter why, it’s fun to finally go through boxes with books, clothes and dvd’s. I have collected so many things over the years, as I’m incapable of throwing anything away without mental suffering, but the plan is now to actually sell some of the things that I know I won’t need. It will still be like watching my baby grow up without me; separation from my loved belongings is like severing bonds between me and cherished memories. But, throwing away old things leaves place for something new, and I can’t get stuck in the past.
I’m looking forward to clean up the mess and know I will feel satisfied once I’m done.